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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

FLUNK!!!!!!!

wasn't late for ecommerce pract this morning. haa din realised i could actually reach school early... not bad...*pat pat* ... took the 6 hrs break to rush for biz com project which is due tml! god damn tired but luckily manage to finish my part and left some time to study for finance test... well i was rather confident abt e test but dunno y... i tink i did quite badly in e end... tat is sooo demoralising!! =(

went ktv with kathy and liru after sch today, it was damn fun coz it have been a long since we last had k session. still, i lurve to sing the song by chen xiao chun, "wo ai de ren" it was first introduced by kathy. after listening to her sing for a few times... i got addicted to it... so nice... ohh yah ek joined us halfway after passing things to desmond... too bad des couldnt make it coz he is having exam or else it will be a great...

haha got our "bin pi yue bing" from ek, it was so so so nice.....haix tml will be a long day.... need to rush for ASP.NET...... will be celebrating zhong qiu in sch lab... lolx... hmmm tatss..... not bad either!! Haaaa.......

Damn sleepy now....
sweet dreamz....


maddie at 1:20 AM

Sunday, September 26, 2004

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time that I see you walk out the door, I would give you a hug and kiss and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would video tape each action and word, so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time, I could spare an extra minute to stop and say "I love you," instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day, Well I'm sure you'll have so many more, so I can let just this one slip away.


maddie at 2:33 AM

LOST...

felt so lost and depressed... guess i muz be having one of my mood swings now...
work full shift today... felt so tired ... mentally and physically... but juz dun feel like going to slp... suddenly i got alot of things on my mind...... really alot alot...... till i can go bonker.... wtf... life really sux when u r experiencing e lowest peak of ur life... dun ya agree? can i vanished into thin air?
since primary school.. we always tend to forget to bring books to sch.. forget it forget tat.. but is it a forget can be an excuse for everything? to me... it is a unsincere act, it is a very simple logic... will u forget ur best fren bdae? will u forget wat u promised to someone u treasure alot? NONONO.... u wont forget all these becos u knew it in ur heart all these things means alot to you n you knew tat they will feel very disappointed if u forget so u make it a point to rem... u will onli forget when u dun put them in ur mind while doing and they dun mean alot to you....

Sometimes in life, u were too busy pursuing what u desire for and miss out those ppl who r nice to you.. so as u tink back.. u will start to regret how much u hurt them and things can nv been e same again... so peeps, open ur eyes widely and look carefully for those who were always there for u when u needed him/her e most...



maddie at 2:08 AM

Thursday, September 23, 2004

RUSH!!

late for finance lect today, was little embarrassed when i walked into e lecture cos it was rather late. 1030am. ha ha retribution! ytd jasper called and i tensed him not to be late for lect tis morning.. end up i was e one. okok next time i shall just shut my mouth...
having ip quiz tml, quite alot of chapters to read thru, and i was really confused.. TCP,UDP,ICMP....... is all protocols and all sound e same to me... haizzz y i skipped all his lect?? now still doing my part for biz com project dued next tues. First draft of biz env to be submitted next mon. and e worse thing... got to show mdm loh our ecpj part WITH ASP tml!!!!!! not one of them is completed... feel so stressed up now... someone help!!!!!! =(

Today after ecommerce lect, me n my classmates went to ask mdm loh abt our ecpj project. ha ha and u imagine we actually crap with her for nearly 2hrs??? me, xiuzhen, xiuling, leehui and weiming were there in e lect hall, from asking abt e project till toking abt her motherhood and wat will happen 10yrs later...wm say something was damn hysterious :
weiming say: we can only read e pages at e back of the newspapers when we turned 30..
me: why?
weiming: because only by then, we may start to see familiar faces!!
all of us: LOLZ!!
This chap has nothing but crapss.... but we did have a great time laughing... hmmm we shall see it in 10 yrs time...

went over to my grandparents'place after sch,so long nv go visit them.. feel so bad!!!
meet my mom n dad there.
having see them.. i really missed them... esp my ah gong!! since he is sick, we can never communicate well.. but still i got a feeling he understand wat i m telling him.. cos he will smile n say something which i dun understand... so happy to see ah gong smile!!! =) hope he stay healthy forever!!!!
accompany my parents to courts to get a.... CLOCK. okok i wonder who gave them e idea that courts' sell clock? anyway i just follow...end up like wat i expected! fruitless trip!! oh saw my grandaunt there, with my aunt n my shuai uncle.. buying a comfy mattress for their mom's backbone i guess. hmm they r really filial compared to those ppl who throw their loved ones to e home...... there is still love around tis world....

back to my report.... bless me for tml ip quiz!!!


maddie at 1:25 AM

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Any faithful guys around?
this qns juz suddenly popped out of nowwhere... hmm maybe is what yana told me tis morning... abt she n lance.. if i din noe him.. i really find him er.. okok lor.. nth impressive... but whenever heard things going on between them... i realised he is a very sweet n very gentleman guy... those faithful kind... besides he got alot of galfrens n not bad looking either... yana yana.. nice catch!! lolx...
Maybe i m not fated to have one.... hahah y m i becoming so emotional all of sudden?? guess i m tired n gonna start my crapz soon...
felt so sorry, juz now ek called n i sound so sianz.. but i m really tired!! sOrry.. we are gona have mooncakes from mAlaysia~!! thank you ek liau!!!
nitexx nitexxx!!!

maddie at 1:23 AM

Monday, September 20, 2004

Tired!!
todae is a long day for me... as usual.. monday bluess... got up at 7am todae for my 8am ecommerce practical.. i was really annoyed and irritated by the bus services.. i ended up reaching sch at 830am.. no attendence taken!!! i already got my 1st warning letter n i m gonna in dead shit again...ARGSZZ!!! =(
recently liking e idea of staying at hm... haha maybe influenced by MISS TAN LAI RU... lolz.. oHH yahh all thanks to tis gurl.. for telling mork my chinese name in cantonese and i shall NOT going to reveal here... now making him luff at me... but we did have a great time laughing at names during work last sun... he is really one good entertainment... for e lst time liru sae i m more mature den someone... so diff compared to his brother though they r twins.. anyway we found out tat mork actually have a long name... Mr Jason Choo QingChuan,Mork!!! izzit it great to have more den one name? so we can use another when we got bored of e other..!!
Met eng koh todae at yio chu kang mrt station... so qiao coz he is going back office and i was with yana waiting for xiuzhen they all after booking our basic theory at ssdc... haha feel so weird seeing ek near my school.. he dun seem to belong anywhere beside town...lolx.. okok i m bad...
Ytd was my lst time betting for soccer.. it was quite fun n i tink i bet 100buckx for 4 matches... with liru n joanne, ek n desmond.. in end i forgot abt e whole tingy till ek called todae to tell us abt e result.. lose 10+++ bucks but ek sae no need to pay coz des n him have cover up our loss...so no need pay..it was really nice of them coz if we won.. we will be asking for money.. hahaha...

maddie at 10:21 PM

Tuesday, September 14, 2004


took it when we were out in town on sat!! so long nv tk neoprint le...


tis wAs taken after work on sun.. look abit shag.. u noe.. after work.....

maddie at 8:39 PM

Life...

weekend over~!! this is the 11th week and projects are all gonna due soon... shhiiitt wtf.. no more slacking!! =( aniwei will force myself to finish up biz com n html for ecpj by tonight....
will be working after school on wed, thur& fri at mandarin hotel.. IBB sales.. wooo shopping time!! need to earn more money $$!!! so no choice..... hope it will be a fun experience coz nv work in e hotel b4..

getting paranoid these few days.. hmm no idea why... pms bah... so peeps, dun try to fool ard with me.... lolx..
went chinablack with ht and her frens, saw quite a number of familiar faces tat nite. saw kevin & his frens, kenny & co... well it was my lst time there ( i m not a clubber) , got to say it look more classy compared to zouk... but the bouncers at zouk are much cuter ... anyway haf a great time..

Din went for the iP lecture tonight, if u wanna sae i m lazy, u r WRONG coz i using e time to rush my projects. heee.. which mean im hardworking..... yaya i m juz entertaining myself here..

Need to book my basic theory ASAP!!!! though i prefer being fetched to driving myself... but still i wish to have a car license.. wanna depend on others might as well depend on myself....

Listening now: Michael learns to rock - Paint my love
nice song.. remind me of my p6 memories...

Back to projects... see ya !!

maddie at 7:59 PM

Thursday, September 09, 2004


My DREAM PHONE!!!! SGH-410C

maddie at 4:23 PM

HELLO!!

how r u peeps?? having a great dae?
keke i m juz being bored... got up at 1230pm todae... went to sch at 2pm for ip networking tut.. but din print tutorial.. so abt 220pm den reach tut room... n our MR-NICE-IP-TUTOR ended e lesson at 230pm...*yawnx* loitering ard e school till now... having ECPJ lab lesson now till 5pm... i got to admit it is really boring coz we got to do our project now on our own... but practically it have been a slacking session for me...

Attend a law seminar in school ytd... actually e topics they spoke to us were rather interesting.. telling us how business laws are all abt... but i dozed off for like half-an-hr when e second speaker started toking.... he is really reading from e slides with his mono-tone.... zZzzzZz.... i was awoke when e third speaker started his speech... he was so hyper in his talk...a good speaker indeed.... at e end of e seminar.... someone pointed out that he is e one that won the "singapore's brainest lawyer".. he dun look arrogant but in fact... he look friendly to me..=)

Aniwei after e seminar.. met up with joanne at town... we shopped ard heerens.. waiting for liru n kathy to join us for e movie, 13 going 30... well for me.. i watch it twice... but since i promised to watch e show with them.. i got to keep my words.. but luckily is a nice show.. so din really regret watching it again.... =)

Juz now our mentor, Mr Mok Heng Ngee haf a tok with us, telling us how to choose our track correctly... i really admire him.. he is cute with his tiny pairs of eyes and being such a young lecturer... heee but he is GETTING MARRIED!!!!! but Mdm Loh sae... as long as he is not married....there is still a chance... aniwei wat he say is quite truth... interests is most impt... unlike wat ms fua sae.. dun take e gamble.. she is only concern abt e future but not our interests... but watever it is... i have already made up my mind of going business track... =)

Liru juz called to confirm whether to go Chinablack tml.. coz it only cost 10bucks... hmm adding up e total expenses of e nite??.... gosh~!!! No money no money...
well asking xiuzhen they all joining anot... confirm with ya later babe...

bored bored bored.... oh yah... princessKody: i linked ya blog le.. sorry to tk so long.... btw a happy belated bdae to u too~!!!!! =)


maddie at 3:17 PM

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

boring... biz com lab lesson now... juz went to vote for the school belle event held in atrium... hmm got to say that our school's "xiao-dao-like-a-like" is really cute and his performance of breakdancing rox!! alright..juz hope that e camera din shoot much of my face coz i was right in front.. is so embarassing... !!

maddie at 4:35 PM

Monday, September 06, 2004

I MISS BLOGGING~~!! my com is practically useless.... internet explorer broke down n haf no idea wat will gona happen nxt!!

OhHHh... btw I M 18~! finally....enjoy my bdae tat dae~~ a VERY BIG THANK YOU TO ALL MY BUDDIES FOR MAKING TAT DAE WONDERFUL!! mUackxxxx.. ^^
yTd was our dear kathy bdae.. she is 18 too..HAPPY BIRTHDAE!! MUACKX.. heee.. grow up kk.... LOLz.. gonna be meeting her for dinner later.... coz missed it ytd.... *everyone was tired*
tOking abt ytd.. wow is really a long dae for me..... helping out at my uncle's new stall at 7++am in e morining and went for work after tat at 140pm.... can't even manage to open my eyes... not tat i m lazy... coz i juz catch 3+hrs of sleep e nite b4...
Was out to zouk on 4th... FREE.. coz got e ticket in for some events held inside.. we were late but luckily still manage to get it.... Ohh e most irritating part is when e bouncer look at me and my ic... n he said: "just passed!!" -_-
It was very boring coz e music was trance .. so we left at 12++am n went chinatown party world n sang till 3am... well it was not really a singing session coz mark n mork have gold in their mouth... can't really open ya see...

Todae is e start of sch after e pathetic 1week term break... overslept and missed e lesson in e morning... *aniwei haf no intention to go either* but got to hand in finance project... somehow, i have one member M-I-A .. n he din do his part..N WE LEAVE HIM OUT OF OUR GRP.. sorry.. 0 for peer evaluation!! our dear weiqiang is hospitalised coz he got dengue fever!!! Poor wq... but at least he had did his part for e project.... *hope u get well soon ^^*
hMm... waiting for e guys to call.. whether to visit wq in SGH anot... if not guess will be going for financial tutorial... can't go home coz is POURING outside...
I m starving........haven eat anything since morning...

gtg grab a bite le...
tata!!


maddie at 3:02 PM

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