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Ek not working tml..... and i got to be mute e whole day, not going to tok to andy much, he look so scary. Seem to have alot of ulterior motives behind his smiling face. See le make me feel like puking!!! Crazy fellow, got nothing better to do. But truly speaking, without ek, i dun tink i can still survive. He really guide n help me alot, like ivanson said, if anything happen, look for ek, he will help u and wont harm u. Of coz i noe he wont harm me, i can even sae he dote me alot. tIS I can really assure. Although sometimes i would find him annoying, but he will still treat me good, i dun tink i deserved it. I tink in tis world, of my 17yrs of living, besides my buddies, he treat me e best... regardless how unreasonable or how childish i react. I can even be sure tat he understand n noe me well enluff than kevin. Although i have been with kevin for 2 yrs , ek seem to understand me better compared to kevin. WHy? because those 2 yrs, i was e only one making effort to understand him, but not him. I only noe tat when e day he told me(2 yrs) tat he dun even noe wat disney characters i like when he sae he wan to bring his gf (1Mth) to watch disney on ice, beauty n e beast. His gf is their hard core fan.
HAha... so funny rite? wat does tat show? i dun haf any fav character? or i dunno how to express my feelings? i have no idea, i can't be bothered now. Gm even understand me better compared to him. he only can read wat my mind is tinking but he dun even understand y i will tink tat way. HA... y m i so naggy in e middle of e nite?? crapzzzz .....
maddie at 1:14 AM well well got back e O level result today, yupx got a D7 for my english language again. Although i expected it , but somehow when e fact is right in front of ya, u dun seem to believe it. I wasn't sad at lst, but later when come to tink abt it, i felt so stupid n useless. Y ppl can score? y i got to fail? Maybe the lst time i fail is my luck, but tis is e second time... wat it show? my standard is there, no more further. Am i really tat stupid? I dunwan ppl to console me, i dun need anyone to pity me. I juz wan ppl to understand how i feel, wat i m going thru, but nobody.
maddie at 1:12 AM Tired n shag... tml got to work morning shift.. gonna slp soon... juz ate a char siew bao.. hhmm.. 5min ago??.. ahha coz my mum told me to finish up tat tiny bun... tats it... down from my mouth to my throat den my intestines and of cos lastly... heuheuhuhue..... i m going bonker in any min... =pP anwei todae work was kind of boring.. no customers... and ninewest counter all i see e whole day was cool Mr Andrew.... where is my Markieeeee?????? Maybe he went surfing again... hope he dun get sun burned so badly tis time.... *sob sOb* ^^
I decided something today, i m going to spend my money wisely from now on (gt nagging from my gfzz), save till i could afford a Samsung E700, e rest of e money going to keep for my driving fees (which will be afer 1 sept), but before tat, i need get a black jacket... ^^ and tats it...
Ps: Saw weiming ride bicycle to skool on friday when i was inside bus 72.... cuteeeee.. he is a really nice chap =) *w|nk*
maddie at 1:30 AM M A R K I E M A R K I E M A R K I E
Haahaa.... juz went taka to get my 0638015 today.... he happened to be in e afternoon shift.... my legs almost go jelly when he smile at me..... hehehee he really make my day.... i couldnt stop smiling.... ^^
maddie at 12:06 AM Juz sat for my econ test... i got to admit it was an easy paper... but i seem to have freaked out.. POM is on thurs.. got to memorise... my life seem so bored... not ICA... den out to play.. or work.. if not slack at home... -_- i m tired... dun feel like doing anything... sometimes i juz feel like letting go everything...
V day over~!! times flies... i rem one yr ago.. me n liru got each other a stalk of rose after work.... and e rose was damn ex.. $8!!!! LOLx.... tats v day... liru shl feel honoured... coz she is e lst person to give me rose.... and oso still e very last one till now... ppl may tink is abit stupid to still give flower... ahha but to me... it is still as sweet... ahaha... oh yah is my blog public?? i seem to see alot of unknown tagging my tag board... weird...
Anyway juz went down to get my fringe trim... lolx... it look so much better now... aniwei now i got a "gugu" head... =P
maddie at 4:47 PM I AM SO SICK OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!
maddie at 11:12 PM eLlox.... well well... feel so much better after these few days.... quite busy with projects and tutorials... enough to keep me from thinking abt other stuffs... oh i got a good nite sleep last nite... hmm was abt 11hrs?? Lolx.. i slept at 8am n woke up 7am tis morning... feel so refreshed today..
ICAs is coming next week onwards..... oMg~ i m still slacking around... -_-
Anyway nothing big happened today.. juz quite unhappy with e management grouping... coz i m in e same grp as Michael!! DAMNX..i dunwan to freak out my project becoz of him..... he better corporate with me....Bless Me!! -_-`
maddie at 1:38 AM Well... have been slacking this weekend... i was too lazy to move my body.. and lazy to work... lazy for everythings in life~ am i really evolving into a pig ??? Maybe... and i can't be bothered... sometimes.. i really dun understand wat i m living for... for my whole 17 years living.... i dun contribute to tis society... no one can't move on without me. Find me a reason why i m here?!!! Everytime i tot i move on.... but in e end... i realised i have been deceiving myself... maybe to feel better.... or maybe i dun have e guts to face e reality... e facts in front of my eyes... i noe very clearly who is good to me... and i m very thankful to those pals who r always there to hear me pour my stories... although it was always e same thing over n over again.... i noe they r too lazy to say me but i m glad that they would still entertain me by listening to it all over againx... without them.... i dunno how i could have survive till todae.... Liru, kathy, wenlin, zhen n rong thank you so much... BUDDIES FOR LIFE!!!......... and someone... EK lolz... he is always there for me.. no matter wat happen...i m really glad to noe him... very very lucky to have him as my ZHI CHI... although he wont come online... but still... i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU TO U U make me realise tat life aint tat miserable... with u... i can laugh my days thrux.... =) Feeling really bad now... coz i have been ignoring him these few days.... sorry ek... but i noe u wont blame me... lolx.. he is a nice nice guy tat i cant deny.... =)
Message to K.... all i wan say is accept me for who i m... is fate i noe u too early... i really wish tat i m some gals out there... but too bad... i m not...u finally changed n i can sense u r no longer tat childish.. tis day finally arrived but i m not with u anymore.... but anyway i still feel happy... coz i finally learn to put down my burden... which is giving up u... tis will be e last decision i made on u.... thank you for all e sweet memories and i will nv forget u =)
maddie at 1:03 AM
