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nothing much happenzz... oh ya.. from todae onward i m going on diet!!!!! i m serious... i really cant stand my FAT BODY... e more i see e more i feel so demoralised!!! ... hhmm.. no wonder shinya dunwan to tAKE A second glance on me... -_-`!
been busying changing layout n doing webbie... e worst part... my ASSIGNMENT IS DUE NXT WEEK... i tink i m dead... i didnt even start... aniwei i m going to do something tonight...by hook or by crook!!!!
hmm.. todae i ate 2 slice of honeydrew for lunch... got porridge with cai xin for dinner.... i muz tahan!!! i muz be DETERMINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
jia you mad.. u can do it... ahhaha... haiz i really hope so... pls..... dun let me see food ..... i cant resist temptation!!!... ahah unless shinya sit in front of me.... den i really can jian fei~~......^_^ hehehe...
my ah ma celebrating her bdae on sat.... heard my mon sae my uncle wanna buy pizza n kfc for us... i m dead... how to jian fei like tat.... haizzz....=(
see ya later... going to do my assignment le..
maddie at 8:48 PM no time for blog todae... busying changing my layout.. aniwei i tink i m a idiot... i delete away some impt html!!!
now my tagboard cant workz... aarrggg...........................
yawnz.. forget it.. i get it down tml den... tired~~
maddie at 4:34 AM dear blogger....hmm.. todae woke up at 1pm!!!! i was soo tired... e weather was so cool... is was raining... so shiok...
dun feel like waking up... nv go work todae... haizz i tooo lazy liaozzz....
Went studying at selator mac with liru.... haha but i only did one qns... but i manage to complete my assignment when i got home.. hmm at least todae do somethingz.. at least not SLACKINGZZ....i forgot to watch MEI REN YU todae.... so sad.. heard todae one nice..... aarrggzz.....
Oh ya... i saw dingdong's blog juz now... hmm she sae something very meaningful.... guys are like walletz... i agree with it it describe till so nice....
" One day, you just realize it's gone. You try to look for it everywhere, even going back to the places where you could have lost it. You think, and you think hard, only to come upon a grim realization: it's really gone.
Of course, you can hold on to some hope. After all, there have been some very, very lucky (blessed?) people who get it back. Perhaps you could become one of those people. You sit home and you hope that someone would call, and that you would get it back. But then, some time passes, and you realize that it's still gone, and you realize that it's time to let go.
The first few days, you turn to your friends for support. Some tell you you'll be ok, some tell you that it was your fault and that you should have been more careful, and some tell you about their own experiences.
They give you all sorts of advice, none you haven't heard before.
You then go out to find a new wallet, only to realize that you don't really want a new one. You want the old one that you lost. No, you don't want all these better-looking wallets, you want yours, because of how comfortable it is, because of all the cards and pictures and other stuff in it. You go out and carry on without a wallet, keeping your money in your pocket instead. You throw away stuff that you would have held on to if you had your old wallet. And then, finally, you find a new wallet you like and settle in.
You then start filling your new wallet, little by little. It still doesn't feel as comfortable as the old one, but it's getting there.
Then you start putting in cards and pictures and other important stuff in the wallet. Soon enough, there's as much stuff in your new wallet as the old one. And then, after some time, you feel as comfortable with your new wallet.
And then you realize that you've almost forgotten you ever had your old wallet. Sure, you still remember most of the stuff you lost on that wallet. But then again, you don't remember the feeling of hurt that you felt when you lost it."
I suddenly rem tat i lost my wallet early in e year... someone stole in when i left it in e storeroom at metro... tis is e one time in my liife i ever lost my wallet.... i was soo sad.....coz kevin photo was inside....
hmm... is it hinting me tat i had already lost kevin at tat time..... ??? and i did went back and look for it... but no matter how hard i try to find... i couldnt find it... den i realised it was gone... it will nv be found.....
and whenever i saw e same design wallet... although it is e same... but e feeling is not there anymore.... i dun haf e urge to buy it again.... instead i bought a new one...
Juz like kevin... although he is still kevin.. e same face i used to fall in love with... but e feelings is no longer there... i dun haf e urge to wan him by my side... coz he is no longer e kevin i noe n fall... not e one tat fill my life with love n happiness....
not e one tat will console me when i was sad... share my joy with i was happy... be there when i needed him....
all these stuffs were gone... juz like losing a wallet....tat will never be found againz.....
Although now i already got myself a real wallet....but i hope to find my "new wallet" soon.... coz i no longer pin hopes on getting my old one back... even if is back... all e photoz n cardz were not there... den wats e point of a empty wallet??
ahaha... i tink i m toking crapzz....hehe... yawnzz so tired todae.... going to slp soon... tml still got to accompany gm watch movie.....
Nitezz...
maddie at 12:53 AM dear blooger.... i m soooo HAPPY todae..... i saw CHRISTINA PEK.... she is my best fren!!!!! my lst ever best pal in my entire life!!!!!!!!!! i was soooo shocked........ she shouted my name so loudly... i turned.. i couldnt recognise her.... but yet she did recognise me........ she keep hugging me and sae she have been looking for me... i feel so bad... coz i didnt reply her letter.... she look sooo happy.. make me feel so happy too.... she study bio-tech!! so smart.... she look so sporty...!! =p
Hmm.. e feeling of finding a long-lost frenz is soo great!!!!! besides mine is my best buddy!!! hehehe....
oh ya todae went to watch e sinfonic concert in nyp... ahaha actually e ticketz cost 6 buckz but we got it free coz my frenz are in student union... hehehee...
It a great concert.... miss band so much... ahah suddenly got e urge to join band......
yawnzz... i m soooo tiredzzzzzzzz.... cannot tahan liao... gonna slp le...although now still toking to gm....!!!!
ahahaa.... nitezzz...
maddie at 1:02 AM dear bloggy.... juz finish watching "xun yi cao"... hmmm i dun like the show... haizz e couple keep facing misunderstandingzzz!... den so many things come between them... i see liao oso pek cek!!! haizz... no wonder ppl sae two person in love may not be together~~... i get wat it means liao.... love till so chanz...and seem sooo tiring.... haizzzz...=(
Hmm... nothing much happen todae.... having lab lesson for 4 hrzzz... feel so tired... not going to be online for long....
i scare i will get computer phobia... ahhaa.... how to survive for 3 yrs......... dun feel like studying le..... so hard!!!!!!!!!
AARRGG... still got to study for ICA on fridae.... infocom... got to memorise..... yuke!!!!! tis to my worse part... i cannot rem thingz.... i m really still SLACKING!!! omgzz... pls GET A LIFE............-_-
Todae i saw my ex ex crush againzz.... omgz is tat fate???????? but i was like slping on e bus... leaning my head on e window glass... and he was at e bus stop waiting for bus...... if he saw me... omg i dun haf image liao..... but i try to look at him but he didnt catch my eyes... aarrgg my eyes TOOOO SMALL........ and e freaking bus i was on was soo crowded tat he couldnt get up.... haizzzzzzz or else we could be on e same bus.... but nvm... at least got saw him is
already a "yuan fen" le....... hehehe...ahah i dun mind him if he dun mind me.....
Todae nv saw shinya... haiz.. if i still dun get to see him... i will soon forget abt him liao.... ahha hmm... got to get some now crush~~.....^_^ look out!!!!!!!!!
Life is getting boring againzz... oh ya today got caught coz nv wear lanyard in e campus... ahaha so lame... aniwei i dun gif a damn!
hmm.. got nothing to write le.... go slp le.. tml got lesson at 8... ciao!!!!!!!!
wish me luck to see him againzz... hehehehe...=p
maddie at 1:42 AM hmmm........ todae i m going to STUDY............heheheh is time to wake up!!!!!
java SUX!!!! nvm... i can do it!!!!!!.... hahah i hope so too.....
Hmm... scoll down my msn and sae kevin nick... i haf not see him online these few days... i got a strong feeling he had block me from him msn... i guess he oso feel tired n dulan to quarrel me.... haha.. i wanted to sms him n ask him izzit.... but then i tink againz... better dun... since we nv contact so long le.. and i m very happy wif my life... so i oso dun bother to ask le......heehehe... feel so proud of my determinationzz......
Last night feel so depress and posted a very SPASTIC blog... i see liao n delete le.. hahaha see liao oso feel so lame....
hmm.. my bloggy shl be filled wif HAPPY STUFFS.....
oh yah!! chat wif liru n kathy and their classmates last nite.... VICTOR... hmmm... from e way he tok.. can see he is very confident or shl i sae OVER confident of himself... and my two great buds are pairing us up!! ... GREAT job.... but kattie send me e picx... hahahah.... i dun like tat kind of face... too bad.. is not tat i m fussy.... !! hahah i really pengzz... when he call our dear kattie... "SWEETIE PIE"....if my guys classmates called me tat... i tink i will PUKE instantly... hey i M SERIOUS!! =P
Yuppie... i woke up 2pm todae~~... hahah quite shocked too.... den saw gm msg... den msg awhile...den went to eat my "TOM YAM BOWL NOODLES"...... ke lian de wo.... nobody is hm.... but oso good la.. or else got to hear my mum kp...
and i come online... okok i got 3 impt things to do todae....
1) complete my stupid damn biz com elearn.
2) complete my java practical which is due tml.
3) do my web application assignment.
Hao la... going to do my work le... update ya tonight.... hmm... todae feel so happy.. dunno y... heheheee....
maybe i got enluff my beauty slp bah.... haha~~....^_^!
maddie at 4:11 PM hihih... guess is another boring dae againz.... oh ya before i forgotten.... i went to work with wenlin they all for citibank yesterdae(sat)... actually e job was juz to ask ppl to fill in lucky draw... is a simple job but i juz dunwan to ask... haiz so i ended copying 50 pieces of lucky draw from telephone book... i noe is bad... but i m not doing any harm to them.. i met new fren.. her name is florence... she is 20 and is a very fun loving gal... work from 11 to 7... dunno y... i feel so tired but earn 54 bucks juz by copying... hehehe... i need money... coz i m broke!!!!
Oh ya~~ i even went to taka to let eng koh fill.. he got fill 10 forms for me... haha in e end i realised he is only work permit... not qualified.. hah but who cares... he even help me to paste back one "torned" form... is so nice of him... haha and he sae he wanna noe kathy.. i pengz... i tink as usual... tok crapzz...
and i got a free levi hp pouch!!... haha juz go try a jeans n gif ur feedbackzz.. den can get liao...
todae went to take photo of nokia picz for my marketing project.... den me n liru went to e convention hall for e adidas warehouse sales... it was sooo cheap.... but u noe wat????????? so qiao... we saw gm... haha haiz n as usual... keep touching my head... and pinching my fatzz......... arrrggg i really need a diet!!!!! haiz and after few hrs there... i came out EMPTY-HANDED......freaking sianzz..... nv even buy anythingzz..... thankz for my mother... gif me such a big foot... cant really fit in a junior sneakerz.... juz 30buckzzzzzz...........haizz
nothing much really happenzz... den we juz went home.... so kinda sianz and surprisely gm nv send me home... haha tats a good thing too... prew~......
haha oh ya early e dae saw kim n a gal on train.... hahha and kim didnt change much... still tat face u noe....hahaha
and my freaking modem is really pissing me offf...... cant get connected for more den an hr.... i m really going to sue singnet for tat!!!!!!!!!!! totally spoil my moodzzzzzz..............=(
getting offline soon... i m tired... tml got lesson at 8... so early... juz hate odd week... got to get up so early ... and as usual.... will be late....................................................................hahaha
nitezz... muackzzzzz!!!
maddie at 1:57 AM hmm.. guess i really didnt update my blog for soo longzz.... coz it seem like so much things happen recently....
sch openz... life goes on... as usual... BORINGZZ...
oh ya... i keep wanting to tell ya i saw YIHUA on e bus when i went sch tat dae...my ex ex CRUSH!! he was not as charming as i saw him last coz of his black hair i tink... aniwei hehe i can still feel my heart was about to pop out....we stared at each other soo longzz... like in drama.... omgzz i nearly fainted!!!! hahh but i m strong.. so dun worry!! =)
so long nv update n so much things happen... cant rem much liao except tat yihua thingy.....hehe
oh ya... tat dae find liru den saw her fren.. chuai... with her guy frenzz........ sooooo cute... he is definately a cute.. boylish yet MatuREd guy... TOTALLY MY CUP OF TEA!!.... tink i m in lovezz...........................................(i m tinking too much)
hmm recently i found a crush in my coz.. i tink i m really too sianz liao... aniwei i m going to keep tis to myself... or else if i told my palzzz abt him... i scare they will "HARRZZ" or pengzz.... but he is definately CAN MAKE IT n not bad too.....
i m sooo bored.... java really SUXXX.... WHO E HELL INVENTED IT!!! i m going to fail for sure.... i dun even understand a shit of it!!! spending 2 HOURS in e lab juz to do FINISH 1 QNS.. and is with my fren help... i tink I M A DEAD MEAT!!!! =(
studies and lovelife suckzzz..... aarrggg.... oh i dun EVEN GOT ANY LOVELIFE...... hahaha....i m dreaming againzz......
saw kevin todae on my way to lirong hse for her sis bdae buffet.... aniwei we end up quarreling againzz.. i dunno y too.. tink our eight characters crashes..... see one time quarrel one time.... and is always over small matters or lame stuffs...
aniwei i m quite used to it le... cant be bother wif him... life still goes on WITHOUT HIM....
-yawnz-... getting tired easily recently... aniwei its good too... get some beauty slp.. heal my PIMPLES.... !!! and i need a serious diet... i m GETTING FAT... cant stand my body... aarrggzz............
hmm.. so sick of single life.... shl i wait for fate? or create myself... hhehee.... forget it... juz wait for it to fall from e sky bah~~......
maddie at 1:26 AM ARRRGGGG.............. why???????? my blog always disappeared!!!!!!!!!!!! haizz aniwei i type later... now going to watch holland v... todae got XIAOXIN!!!
byeeeeee~~~~~
maddie at 7:06 PM yoyo... hmmm tink todae will be a short session coz nothing much happen todae... i haf been doing nothing.....slacking all day.....
woke up at 1+...... watch tv whole day.. hmm....
aniwei tonight dinner suckzz... coz my mom got cater for our dinner.... she is too lazy to cook...
after dinner.. got online.. actually wanting to do some elearning... but as usual... start to surf again....end up doing nothing again....
everything was okie... till tat BASTARD icq me.... he juz type ??.... den i was tinking whether to reply him anot... so i juz ?? back to see wat he got to sae...
i tink we started to quarrel again coz i block him from my MSN.. but he didnt block when he say he wanted to last time.... so tats it... we ignore each other!!
anyway tat is a good thing too.....
-yawn-... going to slp soon... i juz play a trick on liru... posing as a bitch n tok to her in irc... haha she is really PISS OFF....... prew~ lucky i stop early or else she is going to msg hf... i soo sorry... guess i m really tat bo liao n sianz... haha and i sound like a bitch``....-_-!!
boring day for me....... hmm hope to get my hair done tml....
nitezzz.......
maddie at 2:21 AM yoz... GUESS WHO I SAW TODAY.... i m in love!!!..... i saw "niu nai".. "kun da".."shuwei".. and "ah di" haiz but no toro is e worse part....but omggzzz..... they are really call shuai!!! esp kunda... i was like change impression of him... he appeared to be so shuai compared to on tv... his complexion is damn good... and he look so tall~~~~....
todae went n watch oh happy day by "jang nara"... kathy's idol... she is cute n daring.. e watch was quite nice n funny except e ending was way too lame!!!
oh ya rem eng koh... arg..seeing energy wif him like spoil e whole picture... keep saying energy 4 still got 1... waiting for DESMOND...haha poor desmond got such a "great" zhi ji.... oh ya he even called desmond... n make me answer e fone... haha oppz... i tink my heart beat alittle little fast when toking to him... haiz y i juz cant fall in love wif him... he is such a nice nice guy.... hope my chemistry wif him could soon regain back..... ^_^!... and after tat.. e stupid eng koh go call desmond again n tell him i got out of control.. keep shouting n run after energy n sercurity got to hold me stuffss .... he is RUINING MY REPUTATION.... wat if des tot is real.... where shl i put my face in e future.... all THANKZ TO LIAU ENG KOH!!!
OH YAH.... I GETTING FATTER N FATTER.... i feel like a pig.... i muz REALLY STOP eating n go on a healthy diet.... or else really no guyz wan le.... -_-... haha oh ya tok abt guyz... todae me liru n kathy were like standing outside taka... hoping to see energy... den there was one guy... suddenly ask.. can be fren??? i NEARLY PUKE~... and i did laugh out...i noe i was really bad.... but really got to ask him to take a look at e mirror.... he is really CMI... but dun tink he is interested in noeing me... guess is babe tan n babe ngan..... haha...
i juz finish watching e "xun yi cao"..... is a nice show... and couples in e show really make me envy.... and got one part e gal is dying.... she went n drew invisible circles on her bf's palm... coz she say... ppl sae by doing tat... they could meet together again in their nxt lifetimes.... tats so sweet.....
haha i tink i rem crying.... tats sad....
i tink i m dying.... my left earhole seem swollen n painful... i cant even wear earrings now...i need a doctor... but are there doctors specialise in ears... omgzz... will it worsen and got to chop off it................. i dunwan...... i tink i need to get it done asap!!! i still wan my ears.........
hope for a better tml...... hmm i sleepy... didnt get enluff slp.... i got PIMPLES ALL OVER MY FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(
i need to catch my beauty slp soon.... tml will be a day at home....
maddie at 2:01 AM
